life through my eyes

Is high school really ending?
I just went through some saved conversations I had with some people throughout high school. I couldn’t stop laughing about the stuff we said and about the time then. I’m really going to miss some people. I kept on avoiding the thought of high school ending because it’s a bittersweet feeling..but high school officially ends next week. I can’t really avoid the thought now. Time flies and things definitely change. How many times has that been said before? I wonder how different things will be four years from now when I graduate from ucsc? I guess it’s time to close this chapter of my life and open up a new one. The only thing is that it’s different. I won’t be coming back the next year seeing my friends again from last year. We’ll be separated- 2, 3, 16 hours away. I won’t be in Vallejo anymore. I won’t see familiar faces. I won’t be at School wondering who i have classes with or who my teachers are. I wont be doing a summer project for that AP class i’ll be preparing for. Everything will be different and new. I can’t believe that in September I’ll be packing up and going away for college. I remember thinking that preparing for college is so far away in my life that I can only imagine it happening on tv. But it will be happening to me in the fall. welp, like what everyone says, we’re off to better and bigger things.

“If you could change some things that happened in high school what would it be?”

I wish that Bethel allowed class of 2012 to take Bio as the initial science class.

I wish that I took more AP classes (specifically in math and science)

I wish that bethel offered calc BC. I would’ve taken alg2 over the summer that way I’d have calc AB as a junior then calc BC as a senior.

I wish that I took on a job during junior year.

I wish that I took summer classes in 2010.

I wish that I had turned in that honors English form earlier in 10th grade so I could’ve gotten the class -_-

I wish took ceramics. I’ve always wanted that class but it never seemed to fit in my schedule.

I wish I got to know everyone. I know the school year is almost over but I seriously still have classmates whose names I don’t know. Haha. I think there’s at least one person in each of my classes whose names I don’t know…well except for calc. It’s like impossible to not know their names since we see everyone like all the time. Haha.

I wish that I was able to hang out with my friends more. ugh especially senior year, too many missed opportunities :/ like tonight. Maynn, I’m sorry allena!

Happy May 1st

Only a few more weeks until the end of high school :( it hasn’t really hit me yet, but it’s getting there.

High school vs. college

College and high school are very different.
High school:
•waking up at 9am =too late for school
•getting A’s = expected
•getting C’s = not doing good,failing
• 3.0 and lower GPA = not doing good,failing

College:
•waking up at 9am= too early for school
•getting A’s = you’ll be lucky to ever see one again
•getting C’s = passing as average
•2.5-3.0 =passing as average

Talk about opposite life -.-
Current college students were talking about if you get an A in a class you’re a genius. In high school it might have been a norm to always see A’s but in college it’s different.
That part really scares me.
A student with a 4.0 in high school goes to a 3.0 in college? how does that happen….college sounds so hard :/ honestly I’m scared for college. I’m afraid I won’t be able to handle it. I don’t want to waste money either.
Yes, I’m excited for college. No, I don’t feel ready, but it’s coming whether I like it or not. I guess the only real thing that I’m worried about is being behind. I’m seriously just so afraid that I won’t be good in college. I’m afraid that I’ll fail in my classes and I’ll drop out :/ Mr V told us that college drop out rate is 50% that’s so crazy. I don’t want to be a statistic. Haha. Everyone is going to be so much smarter than me. I’m gonna feel as though ‘Im behind and dumb. Haha. High school has not prepared me for college.

What future?

In all honesty I can’t imagine my future. When I was younger I’ve always thought of graduating high school as something so distant, like 5 million years (just exaggerating). I felt that I didn’t really have to think about life after high school because it’s so far that I don’t have to worry about it. It’s funny because high school ends in 4 months. Then what? Of course college..but for some reason I just can’t picture it. I mean I know I am going to go to college but I can’t imagine it or picture it in my head or anything like that. I can’t really imagine my life after high school. We’ve been doing this same routine since kindergarten. We expect to see everyone next school year, get our schedules on the first day, and we won’t be all that sad on the last day of school because we know we’ll see each other again..but now it’s different this time. I can’t picture my future because my past has been a routine and it’s going to change soon. I really just can’t imagine myself doing things differently. I can’t see myself having a job after college and stuff like that, anything after high school really. I can tell you what I want but I can’t exactly imagine it in my head.

2012

It’s the year we’ve all been waiting for. Class of 2012 specifically. The year we’ve been anticipating since day 1 and now, it’s finally here. The year we become adults and turn 18, for most of us at least. The year we graduate high school and become something much bigger than we were before. It’s the year where we go off to college for the first time. The year where I truly think we’ll grow up the most. Yeah, it’s finally here. I can’t believe it. I’ve been thinking about this year since forever and how it was so far. I knew that this year would mark as a very important year in my life because it will mark new beginnings and create so much memories. I already know it’s going to be a ridiculously good and big year..because you know why?

Because we’re the class of 2012.

January 1st is next week, next month, next year.

I totally forgot that when we get back to school, it’ll be January. It’s soo weird how time is flying by super fast. Maybe because it’s senior year. 2012 is just in a matter of days. I remember all those times my parents and I would talk about me graduating high school in 2012 and the year is finally here…well in a few days that is. I always thought of 2012 being soooo far away like light years away. Haha. There would be times in elementary where I would ask my mom when could I get certain things and she would tell me “not until you graduate high school.” I would then ask her when will that be and she would respond “in 2012” ahh I can’t believe how fast this is all going. Yaay January is here. Aw man, 2nd semesters starts which means…the hardest semester starts.____. Dun dun duuuunnnn